by Enos Kwaku Dade Boadu
Where are those songs that rang murky when I first met him?
Where are those fluid melodies that nectared through my ears
and cheerfully opened my every pore with his little little fingering tapping?
Where are those repeating days that closed my eyes and squeezed my soul to eat and savor the bulky bliss of his lips thawing every lip of me?
Where are those moments and nights when he dripped his rough softness in me and me all about him
and soaking every beat of the rhythms that our rubbing bodies played, and widening and widening our pores to drinking the mead of the black hole of our seeming ever-revolving souls?
Where are those tears, those watery claps from my obese heart that cooled and teased my trembling cheeks?
But, oh, see those seeming cooling and warmth and those tickles of moisture! All were mockeries and
deceptions!
All those songs and melodies, those dreamy days, those moments and nights ― those rushes of blood biting redemption is all dusts and ashes
Dusts and ashes like the faces and whispers and the memories of he who has ghosted my soul and still wounds the ghost
But the clot in the womb would throw the poison away
Now this child, this cheek-soft daughter, this smiling pound of memories, this innocent and staring two O’s
blunts and deadens all the daggers
Now it is Sunday morning
But the stomach knows no Sabbath to halt the aching
and, Oh my child, my cheek-soft and nothing-stomached daughter
Sorry you are pass milking, and I, pass those Bethlehem and Canaan breasts
And, you, ancient soul, may bite my teat again if I give you these Gomorrah breasts again
Oh my cheek-soft and pitiful faces darling
We always ask, but we never receive
except for eyes which shame, and cheeks which crack to mock, and loins and tongues
which seek me another doom and after-tastes of the memories about your father
Sunday morning
And our ears and all are charged with the songs and the voices of the church
Sunday morning
And the hymns of the church come to tease our vengeful stomachs
Can we too enter those chapels and seek for food
for loving that does not ash or turns dust
for hearts that would tremble like our tired knees
to mingle and humor me with you my darling ―the filling of your belly and all
with those bites and chewings and down-washings
that grow and flower and fruit smiles and giggles and speeches and good worrying?
Can we too enter those chapels? ― No!
Because I remember the same town that shame and mock and sneeze us off their paths
Are the same enchanting songs and voices of the church ―
Sunday morning
And as you sleep on, my sweet cheek-soft darling ―as you sleep on
I too am rehearsing those songs and melodies and rhythms that still sing and mime and ring my present
I too am rehearsing those daring charms that chain and undream the weaker souls
I too am rehearsing those motions that hold the mead cup of life and crashing it to the memory of sour scars
Sunday morning
And when you wake up, my sweet cheek-soft and nothing-stomached darling ―when you wake up
We shall drink from the chief fountains of the dreams you wail for
Sunday morning
And when you wake up, and when you up, and when you wake up ―
We wake up till eternity and a leap night!
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